I want to re-invent myself. In my last post I expressed a desire to write (and possibly more) and see if I can at least do it passably enough to be taken seriously in the industry. To do this I also stated that I’m going to create a new blog which is where I’ve gotten stuck… Or lost. My name will not grab as much interest or as many readers as a new persona might. Some bloggers use their name because they’re catchy while some take a different name or title, maybe to keep their online identity separate from their business and personal lives or as a way to entice more readers.
As an example, Snarke (her website found here) seems to be derived from Snark (unlike the word snarky) which is actually an imaginary creature from a Lewis Carroll poem. Is this intentional or some sort of inside reference between her and her friends? (Maybe she’ll tell me after I tell her about this post… :p ) As this relates to me, how do I choose the part(s) of myself I want others to see? Will it choose me or do I just have to commit to something random and build around that?
As is a symptom of my usual over-thinking, questions like those have stalled me in the meantime. I continue to give it thought and figured the wide-open internet and this existing blog might just give me an edge (and practice) to figure it out.
Of course, I won’t turn away any help/suggestions from random people (that’s healthy, right?) so feel free to comment.
I’ve had a new idea. I like to write, fiction and otherwise, so I was playing with the idea of looking into freelance writing for some extra money on the side. That would be an eventuality with plenty of free, portfolio-building work leading to it.
I would still keep this blog for my more unprofessional thoughts, opinions, etcetera but I will create a new blog with more a more professional appearance and exploration of issues or stories I find interesting. Somewhere I could practice the kind of writing an employer would be able to see the work I might be capable of. I will treat it with more of a networking mindset while also expressing myself in a way that would make my opinions more accessible to more people. This blog of mine is similar but more geared towards my emotional expressions and my attempts to be funny. I also play “devil’s advocate” more using sarcasm or just fully-defending a viewpoint that may be unfairly represented in an argument.
I also like playing with Photoshop and plan to learn how to use Adobe Illustrator to, hopefully, expand this freelance idea of mine to graphic design. Photo editing (like the kind done for models in magazines) is done easily enough but I need to learn more to widen my skill-set to make graphic design more of an actual possibility. Time will tell if this becomes, yet another, flight of fantasy which leaves me discouraged and defeated by my own self-confidence (or lack thereof).
First step is to Google the crap out of all of this and try to assimilate all the useful, relevant information possible. Second, practice and work for myself or others and get used to the idea and actual experience of working. Third, when my confidence is up and I’m ready to try not to disappoint potential employers, I will look into how to network and market myself and look for real, paying work! I was looking at oDesk for starters and maybe someone may trip upon this post and offer their own suggestions as well.
So begins the, possibly short, journey to becoming a freelance writer and graphic designer.
First, to any who care, I’m sorry for making you all wait to hear the stupid shit that can come out of my mouth…keyboard… you know what I mean. I know it’s been a while since I posted. Also, I apologise if anything I say here offends you. It doesn’t mean I care, just that it wasn’t likely intentional.
So let me begin with something many people have been talking about, Chick-Fil-A. I’ll throw in on the main reason the whole situation even exists, I think same-sex couples should enjoy all the same rights and privileges as everyone else. No I don’t think it’s evil or gross. I won’t even tell people to research homosexuality in the animal kingdom where it is much more common than people think and definitely not unnatural. [did it anyway, not sorry ]
There is a prominent celebrity by the name of Wil Wheaton who weighed in. He met controversy when he, by his own admission, broke his “don’t be a dick” rule. In response, he turned to his blog to apologise and explain his views and feelings while expertly strengthening his side of the argument. I wish I could be more like him, I wish more people in this world could be more like him. Before proceeding I suggest reading the post he made to see how people should think and further solidify my “dick” status.
See what I mean? I’m not that intelligent, I just think I am. Do you think it was right for mayors to try and deny Chick-Fil-A a ability to build in their town? I think they are. Do you think the COO of Chick-Fil-A has a right to his opinion and to donate money to anti-LGBT organisations/initiatives? I don’t think he does.
Let me now try to explain myself. I’m an Apathiest, if you don’t know what that is, click on it. I find religion to be confusing and stupid [not spirituality but organised, established religions]. This issue is overwhelmingly and primarily a religious one. I wish that alone made my point for me.
I think if the COO of a company supports what is basically a hate [lobbyist] group with money he has made from a privately owned company, that it should be enough cause to even charge him with something. It may not be considered a basic human right to marry another person but basic human rights entitle people to freedom from torture which I feel is inflicted on LGBT people by these hate groups. If you find it hard to believe that these people experience torture, just look to or think of someone you love and imagine your neighbours and city and country all telling you that your love is wrong and disgusting and evil. People get beat up and killed simply because they love the ‘wrong’ people. Now imagine living every day of your life like that, not knowing if you’ll ever be accepted or what the people you meet throughout the day would think of it. I know I’m slightly off-point here but I guess I’m trying to say that any person/group that tries to restrict other people from common, legal actions/activities based on sexual orientation is a bigot. This includes the governments that deny the rights/privileges given to other legally married couples.
So if a mayor disapproves of the COO’s opinions and doesn’t want to allow the private company in to the city, just to be diplomatic, the mayor should put it to a vote. However, majority vote already put that mayor in office to make decisions and represent the people of that city. Unless a vote says otherwise, the mayor should be able to represent and act for the people based on his/her opinion.
I don’t think the COO has a right to donate money to what is essentially a hate group. To make matters worse, it’s a private company so personal money and company profits are basically the same thing. If you give money to the company as a customer, you are directly funding the personal beliefs and opinions of the COO [especially when that money directly funds anti-LGBT lobbyists/groups]. *cough* like how they support the Family Research Council who spent thousands lobbying to NOT condemn Uganda’s “kill the gays” bill *cough* … Wow, that was a big one. People will argue he still has freedom of speech, a right that has been abused more times than…. let’s just say a gay kid in high school in the bible belt of the USA. Freedom of speech is only given in the absence of libel, slander, etc. Tell me it’s not harmful, torturous, etcetera to look at a person just trying to love another person and say ‘your god hates you and thinks you’re a mistake’ because of their love. I’d say that violates two human rights, but who’s counting right?
So if I say, in anger, “fuck freedom of speech, fuck religion and political correctness” you know I’m talking about the abused, violated and distorted versions of it currently in use. Does this rant qualify me for “dick” status or am I just a run-of-the-mill asshole? [I'm sure there is a dick/asshole joke in there somewhere...]
On a side note, I found this picture and thought it was hilarious/thought-provoking…
Let me set the stage. A couple of years ago at a Wal-mart I saw and bought an “Ultraspeed” 1TB external hard drive. I thought, “great! I can save all the movies and music I like and still fit all the games on my internal HDD. For a while, it was good. After the warranty ran out (of course) I noticed it began to run slower and slower. We’re talking 5+ minutes to transfer a music file… ONE music file. It kept getting worse so I ran a battery of tests, recovery and repair tools on it which seemed to help a bit… until it began randomly disconnecting.
I accepted defeat and figured I would unplug it and wait until I came up with a good solution to recovering my data before the drive stopped working completely. So recently I found my solution. I was a little disheartened by external drives so I was prepared to spend money to get a good external HDD that wouldn’t develop the same problems. I went with my friend to a computer parts store and the employee reminded me about things I had forgot. All those external drives you see are the crap drives. They spin at about 5400RPM which is pretty slow and they tend to have power save settings that cause them to power down when inactive. Hard drives go through more strain on startup and shutdown than any other time. It’s best to keep them running or keep them off.
How does this apply to my situation? Well, the HDD’s that you have in your computer tend to spin at about 7200RPM and can run without shutting down, preventing that strain (not too energy friendly but they still don’t draw too much power). So what I ended up doing was buying an internal HDD and an enclosure! (It’s even a RAID enclosure so I can put two HDD’s in it at once!) Now I have a faster, better, 3TB drive in an enclosure I can add to and use later on with new computers so I can turn any HDD I have into an external drive.
Good news is, with a bit of patience, persistence, and no one to hear me swear a lot, I was able to save all the data from my old drive to my new one! Another small victory for me… it doesn’t sound as sad in my head. I swear.
P.S. For the curious, I opened up the ultraspeed to see what hardware was really on the inside and it was a Western Digital Caviar Green drive… I thought WD was supposed to be good, even for their crap drives. The new one I got is a Seagate so we’ll see how this one fares.
For any who are interested, this is the BBQ I bought and put together… I’m also starting to get some embers burning to make dinner which is why the grate is out.
I got myself a charcoal BBQ! It was only about $50 and after I put the damn thing together, made a bunch of sausages for myself and my parents. I would’ve included a picture, but by the time it occurred to me, it was already too dark outside… (that happened just before I started this post, shhh :p )
Plus, I got a 4-pack of coolers, Woody’s Sasparilla! (aka root beer with vodka) not too shabby… speaking of someone who usually hates coolers.
So Sausages, beer, sasparillas… decent day… just sayin’
I’m sure it’s happened to everyone, you’re sitting at your computer, tablet, etc. and you start watching YouTube videos. Two (or more) hours later you’re still watching and now you are on the other side of the internet!
Today I started by watching Tabletop (Wil Wheaton + boardgames + web show = awesome) which somehow found a way to watching videos about Nonstop dancing (Ref. Dubstep) which in turn somehow led to Bill O’Reilly getting owned by various people he was “interviewing”. One of those people was Marilyn Manson. For those of you who don’t know (or are stupid) Marilyn Manson is really fucking intelligent. In his interview, Mr. Manson was able to calmly and intelligently answer all the questions (intended to incite) that O’Reilly could throw at him. Not just that, he was able to do it in a way that made O’Reilly actually appear to be a normal person relaying concerns of the ill-informed public. Fucking unheard of!
Even if you don’t care for his music, go look up some of his various interviews and just listen to him. If his appearance is too distracting, close your eyes and just hear him talk about his views and opinions. You’ll be surprised.
So as you can see, I went from nerdy boardgames with Wil Wheaton to religious/philosophical debates with Marilyn Manson. The internet is awesome you say? I agree. :p
Recently I’ve been having religious discussions with one of my friends. He was interested to know what I believed in. I just said “I’m an apatheist.” He didn’t understand and I’ve been trying to explain it to him. See, he thinks he’s Jewish but he’s about as Jewish as bacon. Nonetheless, he said he believes in God, heaven, etc. and he finds my way of thinking odd and unnatural. A feeling I reciprocate about organised religion in general. Want to know what apatheism is, click on it.
I’m sure I’ll end up discussing it more at future times as there is always something to say when speaking about religion and spirituality.